running around the building asking everyone what it is they are doing efficiency economy this is how we make money it is nice that you guys are having a beer here on the clock but i do not really want to spend any more time here than necessary i got this long shot i am working exploiting the creative self i used to think everyone was doing it and then i discovered beer and television
today i told my flatemate that she can keep my electric toothbrush she gets more out of it than me
on the other side of the table danielle is playing with herself i can see how she has lost concentration on the board of snakes and ladders her head is tilted down as if she were pondering over the game but i can see her eyes staring at me through her blonde bangs both her hands are unseen underneath the table a barely perceivable movement in the shoulders i see her mouth drop open i am about to say something when i hear her breathing and i feel something move within me now danielle is visible shaking and suddenly she stands walks over to me and pulls at my grey cord shorts i barely lift myself from my chair it is enough they are around my ankles danielle swings a leg over me like a bicycle hovers for a moment over my erection i feel a tickle of hair and then warm moist suddenly danielle sits and i see nothing
the turn for jackie was always pscychological a power play a broken heart splayed her legs broken friendships brought a climax she didnt need to fake jackie wanted to be fought over another companion lost to her canyon
blindfolded hands tied to the bed head back arched legs spread pushing up into the air searching for resistance i will never forget that mole just on the left side an island in an alabaster ocean
the damend guinea fowl has found itself in the garden once more can it find it own way back or does it need a little encouragement it knows the lay of the land there is a desire to nest in familiar surrounds amongst familiar feathers it is up in the tires just a little jump from there and we are back over shame i missed the furst crossing looks like it is getting itself ready just fell inside the box that could have been the end of its life if a predator was near and watching looking for a mistake slow and steady the male is getting all work up flying in the fence a somewhat non chalant female my chair does not afford my enough height for a comfortable view but this will do no change still considering the problem and the required effort to overcome it now that the record is over perhaps i will go out into the garden to give a little more motivation to this dear bird
i just did not want them to have the satisfaction of having me beat to have them think that their awful behaviour had accomplished anything would be a false reinforcement nothing of the pedagogical qualities for which i strive
getting ahead of myself beyond my own life expectancy i can see the end from here there is nothing more that i can do if i am not already doing it by now then i doubt i will be ever getting around to it
a little water would be lovely drying out up here feel the ant at the waist line never seems to let go sun is slowly slipping from the sky i know how it feels one foot on the floor to steady the ship it has been a minute all this land loving cross country aimless wandering forever ending back up in the garden
no longer always putting on the tunes in the kitchen like i am out too much my depth over my head holding my breath whenever is the space going to come together well it is all happening outside right now is the summer in full swing we will get back to the indoors when the snow comes howling back into existence
lost in the looking for something else never going to have no desire there just building up desire checking in on the other they post something and perhaps i am missing out the fest has got me in its grips close the blinds the light is blinding the roads are winding these thoughts are deafening i dont want to hear the phone ring put some music on
turning the conversation around and around one day make sense the next none at all pointing out the differences i can see from here they may not be within your field of vision change the oil i do not want to take the pan off i do not want to know what it looks like so long as it is still running are we missing any oil i hope not
the americanisation of the european tertiary institutions cultural slow creep eroding paid days off and public holidays put everything back on the negotiation table in the name of economic flexibility and reward a go getting forget about the slide from option to obligation such as the dual income family one upon a time a single member of the family could support the entire family groceries house car and holidays where is my four day working week mr chancellor sir
still growing up with myself finding hard and soft spots where the feet do land no idea where the expectations lie any more the pragmatism with open eyes and arms has so far yielded best results on the road and in the mountains there is nowhere to run in the flat lands stand your ground or submit success is hard work and there is no success like failure when success is no success at all
get out there take measurements doing a costings on the possible variations get your shit together put it in a bag take to the shit museum do whatever you have to do just get your shit together pen paper and a measure off we go shit in hand
tomatoes are out there at the end of the week the garden deadline is really ascension day and then we shift into summer mode which is more or less construction and repair on the outside the walls and fences doors and windows roofs and gutters
a little focus and then moving out of the game i gave him ten years and we are halfway there could we really be out in another five still possible not probable even if it were to happen would not let go of the paying into the system not until we have the first million euro turnaround
no more touching the face get out of the habit of spreading the disease
been sometime since i have been looking over my shoulder but it has recently started up again a little too long in one place get used to the idea of others recognising the self walking through the world voluntarily engaging expecting the social niceties
a lot of ferreting around those wires red dust indeed i sure am glad that there is not a skerrick of responsibility round the weekend workplace
the confusion is born from a latent division between instinct and physics the assumption is that the knowledge whether instinctual or learnt is outside of the laws of physics that govern the world in which knowledge accrues and is acquired the very same laws that apply to the object the subject and the knowledge of the object within the subject why still all the separation is it still unclear that knowledge is physical the object is knowledge is subject is world
reality came crashing in the youngest has finally made itself the largest to be of no more use ran out of obedient lackeys to carry out bidding stay at home close to the toilet