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the birds start coming in all by themselves around four or thereafter and are waiting for the grain two bowls go into the trough and the window closes behind them as the light goes on in the stall pop back in at seven to collect the eggs and another two bowls of grain go into the trough one more time at nine to turn off the light and wish them all goodnight
i get caught up in the moment and that is when i fuck things up i have noticed messing about in those serious lives all around me too much too playful too much too touchy too much i will leave a song at your feet i am wasting myself on all these serious faces in no name places
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that hen disappeared without a trace just got up and flew away saw an opportunity and took it best of luck to you out there on your own babes make the most of it
never have had to fight for it not really no not by any stretch of the imagination simply come one of the lucky ones and there is not a day that goes by where i dont know it thankful is the word so i have to work at all of this not that the fall would have been easier no not by a long shot this is by far more comfortable the output is obviously different and i have so much respect for those who have dragged themselves through the pits of hell too much respect for me to pretend that i have been there or to throw these blessings away this life that so many have done so much on the way to achieve such and suchness in order to find something that is not there i can see the warnings in the work
sit down for the daily dose of state propaganda
everything is fine
stay at home
it is all a mess
stay at home
dont forget to go to work
and pay taxes
allswellatthestrikeofthebell
yes alright mother i will pop in and get the referral to have the photos and the scans some sort of reference point let us assume that these feet are not marching to far from here again never say never but it is something to kill the time will they transfer or perhaps i can take a print out with me home is where the heart is i tell myself lies to lie still and get a solid eight hours of sleep we could all be taking off in the morning if you read too deeply into the non proliferation treaty
can you just warn me the next time you are going to be tight or broke or whatever the excuse and i will make sure to bring a little dosh of my own just not used to paying for drinks what do you expect of me i have already gone to the effort of supporting live theatre that ought to be enough
so long as i have eyes i will look
aux armes etcetera
so long as i have ears i will listen
aux armes etcetera
so long as i have hands i will hold
aux armes etcetera
tell us what happened after you were ejected from the restaurant.
we pretty much went home.
remember you are under oath.
we drove around looking for another all you can eat seafood restaurant.
and when you could not find one?
we went fishing.
ladies and gentlemen, does this sound like the actions of a man who had all he can eat?
drill into the wall to hang a cupboard and a shelf all part of the entertainment system something bought some time ago and moved here and has an aesthetic attachment makes the space look like so many others this is collective desire where we may be at home matching and then a cup of tea and a few biscuits before we move onto the curtains well that is necessary because we dont want anyone seeing in here that it is the same as over there a little cave when we want it a stunning moving wall and out to the balcony to see what is pissing on the street below the theory does not match the practice no swishing or skirting on the floor for the curtains of a material length of two and a half metres that is the entire height of the room no mounting on the ceiling that would look silly slightly impractial well either cut the material to desire length or accept the design and last but not least the bathroom mirror drill into the gout reverse the attachments false attempt nice try but look here the tape of the holes intended for the screws gives it all away
with the sun in my eyes i cross the main street i cannot hear anything coming because there is nothing there still sounds busy and i am surprised to see people on the street hands in their pockets somewhere to go warm enough to be talking on the street corner take a moment in the sun for it wont be there tomorrow
dont be afraid that the kool aid wont be passed on our way some beasts are better left in heat keep experimenting in ma's kitchen someday we will stumble upon a recipe scale up to industrial production and be bought out by a multi national conglomerate
silly little misspeaks the messed up mixed up in the head on the tongue thought somewhere else not on the feet not on the fly no en pointe somewhere else entirely not ready for people ought to have taken a moment to compose myself on the sidewalk but i hurriedly entered without a second thought
doris cannot let anything sit a symptom of a disturbed mind not troubled but disturbed shattered at some point not willing to right itself perhaps beyond steadying becoming its own raison d'être for-itself justifying action and motivating action gives the unoccupied something to do develops a sense of self worth no one else would do it doing such a good job of it paying close attention to the detail but only the detail seen not expecting anything new running over the same old ground with a new cloth and a new bottle of water plus
cleaning up the mess at four in the afternoon i cannot trust the flashbacks the reconstructions passing through the mind fight or fuck or both mutual masturbation or perhaps i just beat myself up after everyone left because i started openly masturbating the drink became too much the smoke became too much the mushrooms kicked in hard should not mix alcohol and mushrooms or did i not eat enough what did i have for dinner did we not eat out at that little italian place and then come back here or did we just grab a falafel on the way to marta's but then how did i get back here with the train perhaps that is possible sometime round midday would have been easy or a long walk where is the bike did i have it with me i dont see it now so hard to tell better not believe any of it just focus on restoring order
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