das Ergebnis another arrangement but for how long until the next arises with any luck a slow turning machine a month of otherwise then in a transient bliss-becoming a tending toward a getting used never on the nerves can let everything go for just that long to get what needs to be done the studious lost in four walls of writing filling and cramming a slow burn stake a drive into the methodology required to crack a code to get a required grade nursing a wounded ego something to raise the clam shell gesture people get by with less than what i have how do they call that speaking a language how do they call that getting by a work out of the mouth only in action a communicative response not required just don't reach for the sword i can draw quicker a bakers mess i am just so picky choosy  ¶ 9:45 am 0 Comments

  stains every outlet around me is standing still must be plenty of life going on getting under around elsewhere what happened to the perpetually distracted always busy go getter just for the moment running out of a last a few days off a recharge something to kick to get back on i have not the time for this shit get that back together and sort out what the fuck needs to be done the pulling out of all those lame lazy shortgap measures laying off the pragmatism i am still sowing will be a large harvest whenever autumn comes hanging around to stalk in another winter give me just one more month and i will have this all sorted out one more month to perfect the practice to launch myself into a world of misunderstanding it is never too late to start but the better time is always earlier yesterday if you can manage that i wonder sometimes if all this is just a distraction a keeping at bay the energies required to separate this ego and exist free from perspective caught gawking a sigh kicks in later in life not yet too much bright eyes going around sun sinking in through suede dangling behind plants what are we supposed to think of this lock in existing on yet another parallel pickup the schoolbooks relearn geometry math was just another language you either got it or you didn't and to maintain fluency is to keep using it put up to the test change the mode of thought not nestled within a language of expression but refine it to the purity of number see how they dance a light show affair how can i share those states of being from here i give all the customary notions as they deservedly accrue presenting themselves repetitively adaptation led to the development of just having the right thing to say at any given time otherwise we would have all lost our heads long ago this one is getting another screw on tomorrow always in the morning i work miracles best in the morning a re evaluation of the where at the reawakening into the seriousness of attempt do not let this one go there will be no second time round no profiteering on the sidelines here survive or die the retreat is not an option the only retreat is to progress into the place where one wants to be why if there was a retreat that would assume one left a place of comfort of satisfaction where one wanted to be how is that so where comes the motivation to leave the bed if not out of the necessity to pee and who has not first attested to the discomfort of a bed soaking in pee here is motivation enough to leave have i finished peeing is it time for bed

i am not tired yet  ¶ 8:49 am 0 Comments

  death cab bonzo making a well restrained joke what is so rough about living tough amongst the animals sleep with sheep and walk with a roo rhyming couplets bouncy pleasantness cheesy one liners of satire shifting position locking through a day off a monster creeping up round the corner a crack at the sitting back tuning out a relaxation method whatever is going on in the background meddling beyond the type of what do people want to be doing a coming a swinging in by i have to sort out in my head what i want to be happening and what the other wants not within the time frame not within the looking out after things not trust what is it that one wants the referencing systems building up in a drab corner dying overnight not getting enough light  ¶ 10:46 am 0 Comments