a lot of people in this world and we have to live with them all some of them make an absolute mess of it and we all have to suffer for it others just manage to scrape by and think the goulag heaven sent most be getting on we all die just the same back into the earth from which we came there is nothing that any of us can do we are all part of the great race around the world and into a grave born in the cradle of civilisation we will die in its tomb
like a chook in the final death throes in the clutches of a fox really letting out the lungs to scare the mammal into a fit of sympathy the howls from the other side blood curdling is it enough to let go of dinner the means to self preservation how hungry are you fox the other's pain becomes my own in this moment of death ecstasy the fear of the light closing in on the predator become target potential prey exposed does it have to be this way can we not all go on munching upon the grass which seems to grow back with greater vigor after every bite
i can finally hear it what a relief a little bit of use and the old bastard comes back to me like a friend i have missed for a long time unfamiliar and familiar like something i heard in a dream comes waltzing into life this waking dream getting louder and louder we can get on with it
you are truly missing out on one of the best cauliflower curries this side of the Elbe
this was always a lone show affair an arrangement for the outside on the inside we are running our own depressions and lies to the mirror maybe sometime later honesty will come out but i think this one is going to the grave life is easier if you just believe the lies then there are no dark long tea times of the soul no peering into the void and trying to reconcile yourself with your dreams that were never accomplished never even undertaken if only you gave it a little effort rather than giving it all uü and doing someting else something easy where the need was great
i fell asleep in a cup of my own vomit is much more realistic than a pool learn to use your sense tell me what is in the dish dont just eat it like a cat in front of a bowl of kibbles actually taste it and think about what it tastes like and find an experience in there somewhere that reminds you of the world you live in an object in a place at a time with someone doing something a life and a breath bringing them back together through your own journey like so many dots on paper making a representation of a constellation the veins upon a leaf already fallen from the tree to the forest floor we walk together upon a single vein breathing this moment as one of many not to be forgotten
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a big small thing accidentally discovered at the bottom of a disused drawer in the basement cupboard
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i hope next time we will be a little more intelligent a little more communicative a little more heartfelt so that we can see through our failures rocket out over them
give it the best you can all else is just not worth the effort not even worth the collective piss of an internet meme you talk about an instagram success story and i about the collapse of a civilisation a way of doing the life thing together you mean living together we are talking about the same thing you are a small insignificant part of that collapse in a number so great that behind your empty smilies you lead without leading the entire species off the cliff edge
now that you have one thousand and one problems and your closest friend is birmingham halloumi get yourself to the other side of town to get a drink because you want it when you want it but no one is going to let you have it around here not even this late how did you get so out of touch
well you know the hatchet job that is comedy is not getting any better but it is definitely getting tougher
what if we just hold each other
i think perhaps it would be best if we didnt not right now maybe later when you have worked out what you want and how you want it and when you are ready to say yes and start running your life like a liquid in a bottle you can take it wherever you want with you
that is a lot for someone like me i am not a together kind of person i am the opposite i am a falling apart kind of person
we know what is in the water but we have nothing else to drink got no choice in it we get thirsty we are the hatchet job killing ourselves in front of the screen you can turn over and turn off i dont give a fuck about your trade wars i have nothing to trade i try to produce enough most of the time it is not sometimes too much the surplus goes back into the system a reinvestment if you will back into the ground i farm micro organisms when my mouth stops eating and my arsehole closes up the soil will devour me
contagion only infects healthy bodies sick is the new immune walking down the street with a flaming torch chanting burn the witches
sorry i am late i didnt want to come
is that some sort of sex joke
if you want it to be
what are you doing here if you dont want to be here
no no i didnt want to come and then i changed my mind so i want to be here now
you do
the rumble of neutral is quietly shaken when gear is engaged a little more noticeable after a long sit give it half a minute or a whole and you will know what i am talking about you really are enjoying gabrielle well yes erika's daughter has tasty syrup between the fingers that simply run smooth
this is the way of the berliner bear but not me the australian sun has me burning from the inside and what of the wine exports to mainland china so what does europe care so near and yet so far keep moving each other's shit around tear it out of the earth here and cut it up over there bottle back here and package it up to send it back over there and back again sprayed onto something else no one asks about the unpleasant side let the boat float and rot from underneath where the sun dont shine and power accumulates in the moronic minds who feel their hands upon the levers of power but the lines are rotted out
little vibrator you are helping me get through the day but not all our lives are the same this is a very privileged position indeed the greatest worry is trying to find a spare usb outlet to charge you small specific energy efficient desire tickler you lose me in myself disengaged from the world in a bag of unnecessities
i just scream with boredom i dont care about your woke ideals we are not dealing with the citizens of enlightenment but with savages there is no forcing empathy down a throat choking on meat the cat is looking at me it wants to come into the kitchen we have let it in here before and now we dont and why is that well it is just an unclean cat i never wanted it inside and we gave it far too much ground and now it is being punished for our mistakes for not training it properly too soft a will it is really still a tool for the life lessons not learn but we are learning because we want to learn mother does not want to learn so she will not learn and i am learning through all of this i am seeing out the term and watching the adult learning how we play catch up on our childhood or lack thereof
what about that world war triggered by the disease that only attacks healthy bodies for those already sick are immune best not get well soon
it came late it didnt want to come at all
is that meant to be some sort of sex joke
if you want it to be
then what are you talking about didnt want to come why did it at all
it changed its mind
we know what is in the water but we have nothing else to drink turn the tap and turn off and turn yourself loose i dont give a fuck about your trade wars i have nothing to trade i produce what i need and you tell me to sell the surplus need i explain everything that comes out of the ground goes back in round and round i will eat it next time until i am eating myself until i dont need to eat any more