selbstprüfung
generally upbeat mood with bouts of introspection today the outside perspectives came hailing in from all directions an almost complete three hundred and sixty degree view no need for chemical stimulation the signification machine is working marvellously without any call for concern or otherwise dubious respects my little brain is under strain just trying to get a grasp on what this body is perceived to be doing nothing matching up with the perpendicular frenzy of inarticulate nothing a void into the night just heading out to grab a bite to eat with friends and then a stroll out on mehringdamm what is the harm none none intended put out a welcome sign to all and every involved set up little catch cry traps act in an absorbed manner whereas all else could be absolved in complete isolation alas i have stumbled across the go get 'em attitude a participatory remark not an activity left unguarded always enjoyed the nothing more to be said tell you about it whenever i get the urge put me up on the wall what is it that i am not interested in the workings out of the other biped passing in and out of phases sure i will come along and have a look see but not really something i would do in home ground perhaps the feelings are different given the changed circumstances heading in and out like a paper doll where are the care lines drawn what is the speaking carpet introduction live in accommodation welcome to a new lifestyle never quite got the hang of pulling out in a respectable fashion got to get that kind of action down pat no matter how ugly it may feel or look another insignia for the blind another would be patronage in a lifetime of suggestiveness could be sitting anywhere in the world doing this but i have to be somewhere whatever and ever amen kant never left the home town i suppose that is where one is and has to be somewhere but god bless my cotton socks here i am born into the decadent age of travel of sightseeing the history has already been made just sit back and watch it on your tv screen when it is too cold to step outside plenty of bullshit in the dishwater swallow it all down one gulp
never noticed that i don't ask people to accompany me the lone shark strikes again affronting the sensibilities of those more social bipeds always weeding in and out of an occasion protruding a presence beyond the incessant beat of a heart an ability to sit through the collapse of world exterior a world of appearances written off in any short term sense only as an informative and stimulus a living referdex of the thought strokes of the internal monologue streaming into a universe a conceptual framework of inhabitation
all it takes is a word and the notion of truth what was how it was is blown away like a powder cake all i pretend to have in any act of communication is how it appears to me and even then this includes the usage of the medium in which the communication exists part and parcel what of it i know has been encouraged down my throat like liquorice for the first time forever getting easier to swallow til one day one mistakes repulsion for enjoyment where in the world has this acclimatisation got us if not the ability to sit through the decline all the while documenting the unseen unnavigable paths of the mind
können
free form obscure nothingness jotting down the ones and zeroes still getting the öpsilon and set mixed up on the spelling error list when will the codes ever sink in give it ten or so years then only the accent will be caught out on the highways where is it that you are from wo kommst du heer stand out placard reimbursed in the road but keeping alive for now in warmed solace not quite getting the interactive burst an all too familiar sting better left unsaid turned inside out rotting in the corner covered over consider it compost help the flowers next spring but for now just let it bleed
run out of beat