This morning i was made aware that my bicycle had been forcibly removed from its home. I am upset by this misappropriation; as the bicycle and i had grown fond of each other. A great shared history stood with us. I never viewed our relationship as one of authoritian power but a mutual one in which both parties gained advantages.
I am sad because i feel as though i have let the bicycle down. I should have taken greater care. I kept it in good condition - repairs were carried out after the MVA - and i kept it secure. Obviously not secure enough. There are many bicycles on my street that are secured by a bike chain on the front of their respective houses. Upon purchasing a high quality chain we agreed that it could be kept in a similar position. Alas, security is an illusion.
Obviously there is a sense of victimisation. i dislike theft. Especially personal theft. Even personal theft from the wealthy (which i do not deem myself to be a part of - priviledged over the great majority of the world yes, but within the society i inhabit i am far from wealthy). Nevertheless, nothing hits home like personal experiences. They delude the mind and shape one's attitude to a great extent. i am trying to examine this instance not so personally, so that i do not guide my hatred derived from my personal loss (affect) toward the individual who stole (this would be unnecessary and pointless - it was to be done and has been) but rather toward the apparent social conditions that manifest theft.
I arrived home at 2am this morning and the bicycle was still happy in its humble home. However when i finally slept i had terrible dreams of the disembodiment of this wonderful creature, the cycle, and its disappearance. A bald man appeared in that very dream. The bicycle cried out to me in terror, but i was in a deep sleep - the message passed to me in a dream only.
Now it is gone. But a memory. I will keep its precious chain. A useless object, brazenly razored with a sufficient instrument. Go gently into the dark night oh brave steed. Let no one rule you...and perhaps in time you will find peace.
Well, you're just gonna have to go and confront that bully?
if you can find that bully.
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