Dasein (coincidence)
if something does not begin now then it never will, with all this time set aside, with all the aid of study and, self support in an atmosphere of sacrifice with the learning and the acquiring of lingual and cultural mythologies, if nothing arrives now then there is no hope of it ever arriving. the sad inevitable fact of it all is that there is no way for me to know in any certain terms of its arrival/departure, so i am left treading water no warning no matter.